Married life. Once you get married, your life changes. I struggled for quite some time. I had to take care of my husband 24/7. I had to do things that I didn't have to do before, like waking up very early to cook, dropping my husband off, preparing his lunch for tomorrow, the list goes on...There would be times when I would reminisce the times when I was single. I didn't have to do ALL these things. I was with my husband for about 2 years then we got married. I felt as though I got to know him more now that we are married. I started to know more on things that would make him happy or angry. Being a wife to someone is not as easy as it seems. It's not like in those dramas you see in movies. When you say "I do", you have given your life to that person and promise to love and care for that person no matter what. I am still learning. We are still what you consider "newlyweds" couple, but because our love for each other is so strong, whatever problems it may be, we can always resolve it. I hope that those of you who are in relationship will have this outlook in life. It's okay to have arguments now and then, but of course, no physical fights ok! God bless you all.

Hello, I'M BACK. I'm such an awful blogger, I know. I was caught up with so many crazy things that I abandoned my blog. I promise I will update more often....

Upcoming posts:

• Thoughts on married life
• Thoughts on being a full time house wife
• My not-so-easy makeup routine 
• Haul

Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. ~ Proverbs 3:5 

I am someone who gets anxious super easily. I am someone whom you call a worry wort. I cannot control it. When I get super anxious or worried, my body would tremble badly. I would push people away, and that includes Ryan. Sometimes my action affects my loved ones and that is due to my anxiety. I will admit that I live in fear. Being a Christian, it has been advised that you do not live in fear because God is with you. I have been baptised, but I still struggle with this problem.

Lately I have been super anxious. I'd like to think it's wedding anxiety, when you realise you will get married and how everything won't be the same after you're married. Being the youngest, I have my parents to protect and love me. I am basically a princess. I was super excited to get married. Wedding planning sounded so fun and all, but about 3 months ago, these happy thoughts just eroded away. I got super anxious about it. I would be super stressed out and would have stupid thoughts in my head. Marriage is a scary thought!

Sometimes I end up crying because I don't know what else to do. My emotions just cannot be controlled and I am not someone who easily speaks out my mind. I do hope that my anxiety can somehow be resolved or "treated". I don't want to be living in fear no more. When you worry so much, you are not living a life. I just wish that all of you don't have to go through what I'm going through because it is just ... too painful.